Tangled Web

Deceptions of a transgender guy


The Countdown

Exactly a month from today, I have an appointment with a plastic surgeon to discuss top surgery, I have my shrink Haan’s support, as well as that of my partner, B and my BFF. At 56 I have decided on only top surgery to bring my body at least somewhat in alignment with my mind and being. At this later stage in my life I will be content to live without bottom surgery and hormones. I have been living as a male in my mind for so long now, the external manifestation would be to the world only. Why then top surgery? I guess that breasts to me are the most visible objects of the shame I had endured though the years. By getting rid of them, I would be casting off the shame and be able to live more at peace with my strongest internal family member, Kris. The Internal Family System is a topic for another post. Penis envy? Yes, of course!

But for now, it is time for reflection on the past.


Author: Kris

Hi! I'm Kris. I live in South Africa with my life partner of 27+ years, whom I call B or Madam in my posts. We have a Pug dog child, Remi, also known as Pooch, who has graced and enriched our lives for the past 12 years.

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